today: empty, angry
*how can someone feel the different thing on the same time*
Lately I dont know what to feel.
I feel like I'm dying. I want to die. But I'm scared of death. I dont want to die.
I dont know what to feel.
I've been missing my daddy more.
Hoping that he should be here. Hoping that nothing change. Hoping that someone should be here to protect me. me and my family.
But he isnt.
I feel maybe death is just another shortcut, but then again, shortcut to where?!
I dont know what to feel.
I'm depressed again
I feel nothing again
I dont want to feel pain. I hate being hurtful. I dont want to feel pain.
But in the end I dont know what to feel
I feel like.... I want to just die and wont be able to feel pain.
No more.
But... maybe death is not another way to stop this pain
I dont know what to feel
I want to stop feeling....
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