God, I'm getting weaker.... I obviosly need a man in my life. someone who will help me stand even stronger. someone who will protect me, and let me protect him.
Someone who wouldnt ever let me get hurt. someone who will make us depend on each other.
Someone who will live with me for the rest of our life.
Please God...
faster....
Monday, 10 October 2011
10.10.11 (2)
I hate it when someone order me how to do something, well, how to control the way I feel.
I really hate it.
why dont they leave me alone? why keep pushing me around when I dont like it?
Why? Why?
It's like I'm not being able to feel for myself.
someone obviously pushing me to keep doing it.
And I hate it. I even hate it only thinking of it.
I really hate it.
why dont they leave me alone? why keep pushing me around when I dont like it?
Why? Why?
It's like I'm not being able to feel for myself.
someone obviously pushing me to keep doing it.
And I hate it. I even hate it only thinking of it.
10.10.11
today: pissed--well, not today, but the day before
why ppl share their heavy problems with other ppl when they know that it's already heavy enough?
or maybe it's just because somehow by telling that problem to other ppl will make the problem dissolve, disappear, solved?
or maybe just because ppl need and will get sympathy?
well... it makes me think....
my skripsi thing is killing me
and obviously someone making me think of another problem.
I didnt ask for it.
why ppl share their heavy problems with other ppl when they know that it's already heavy enough?
or maybe it's just because somehow by telling that problem to other ppl will make the problem dissolve, disappear, solved?
or maybe just because ppl need and will get sympathy?
well... it makes me think....
my skripsi thing is killing me
and obviously someone making me think of another problem.
I didnt ask for it.
Sunday, 9 October 2011
07-09.10.11
pissed again.
He's back again. I dont ask for it.
I dont even talk sweet to him! NO I DONT! obviously not!
but why does he keep coming back?!
saying that it's unfinished matter.
well, it does!
I can be his good friend if he wants to. well, I always trying to be one good friend.
But I think he wants more.
The more I know him, the more I realize that he's not 'the right man', well not for me.
he has no quality that I'm looking for.
He is will-weak you know.... easy to give up... easy to be depressed....
I dont think I need that type. I'm easy to depressed and pretty lazy in person. I need someone who would stand stronger than I do. someone who I can depend on--not someone who can depend on me. NO. big no way.
God, please help me find a man who fits my type. Because I obviously need someone I can depend on these days.
He's back again. I dont ask for it.
I dont even talk sweet to him! NO I DONT! obviously not!
but why does he keep coming back?!
saying that it's unfinished matter.
well, it does!
I can be his good friend if he wants to. well, I always trying to be one good friend.
But I think he wants more.
The more I know him, the more I realize that he's not 'the right man', well not for me.
he has no quality that I'm looking for.
He is will-weak you know.... easy to give up... easy to be depressed....
I dont think I need that type. I'm easy to depressed and pretty lazy in person. I need someone who would stand stronger than I do. someone who I can depend on--not someone who can depend on me. NO. big no way.
God, please help me find a man who fits my type. Because I obviously need someone I can depend on these days.
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